[ E x p e c t a t i o n ]

People always expect something.
Good for themselves, sometimes people around them.
Bad for people they hate ( not sure )

They often say " How i wish i could ... How i hope i could ... "
But they always refuse to say " Why don't i just dream on ? "
I mean, life is totally random.
We don't know how long we gonna live in this world.
We will never know who will leave us or when we will leave people
around us.

Now, from what i see.
Life is like,
you get born into this world.
Then raised and taught how to be a "Good" fella, and don't
do the "Bad" things.
Normally, primary then secondary then higher education.
So when we're in primary,
teacher always ask " what's your ambition "
If you can remember what you told your teacher back then,
try to see/think what you're doing now.
Make a very simple comparison.
See if it's the same. Obviously no. Sometimes yes.

What i'm trying to say is,
we're never taught to know how unreal those ambitions were.
It's not wrong to have ambitions.
As we grow older, we progress.
We learn more about this life.
I don't know if there's anything wrong.
But just felt like writing these shits.

Laa ...
Bottom line is,
when you hit rock bottom and you don't know where to go,
what to do, who to trust.
Just learn how to say " Fuck it "
Maybe i sound a bit stupid asking people to do this.
Cuz normally people would think this kind of attitude is being
not responsible, not facing the problem.

My say, being not responsible and being rational at the right situation
is different. Very different.
You can't ask a person that's going to die in the next 1 week to
be responsible and keep fighting for his/her life.
Sometimes when we hit the wall,
we do mistakes.
It's always good to look for solutions and try fixing it again.
But sometime, certain thing ...
I prefer to say " Fuck It " and move on.
Rather than being pathetic and hoping people will
pity me. Hello ?
Got me ?

Expectation often leads to disappointment.
( again, im not asking you to forget about expectation )
But people always tend to forget
that famous word that all Drama/movies like to use.
" The higher your expectation is, the bigger your disappointment will be "
So sometimes, when their expectation never happened they feel " Fucked "
Then they start to feel Emo.
Sitting 1 corner, feeling pissed off, disappointed, sometimes like someone
owe them $10k.

Who taught us about expectation ?
Did he taught us about disappointment ?
But i know it's experience that will teach you how to deal with it.
If someone is seasoned enough, they will be as good as a medium rare steak. Hahaha.
Seasoned in this case simply equals to,
Got disappointed for countless time.

Actually, i don't know what made me write this entry.
I don't know what i said is "Right" or "Wrong"
But that's just my thoughts.
Life is short, Do your best in everything.
Break the rules and make your own rules.
Think out of the box, Look into the box.
Fuck the papers you failed, just make sure you know why you failed.
Not whining about it to everyone you know.
If you were hurt by a Bitch/Dickhead in relationship,
Move on. Why bother wasting your time feeling sad over it ?
Don't be a bitch, Then bitch wont bite you.
You gossip, Gossip you.
You play, Played you.
If you're a man, Do what a man is supposed to do.
If you're a lady, Learn how to do what a man does.
Unwritten rules are bullshits.
Break them, then you break free.

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