[ Depeche Mode ]

I have no idea of what to write.
But i got "Update-Your-Blog" requests from my friends.
So I am trying very hard here.

Oh well, I'm no longer unemployed.
Hahaha. And my job requires me to travel a lot.
Hence the reason why you don't see me online nor
updating my blog very often.
It's a cool job. I have never done anything like this before.
Been to places that I would have never gone to like
Teluk Intan, Sarbak Bernam, Gemas and bla bla bla lalala.

But due to this job,
I'm getting distanced from my friends.
People whom i want to get close with,
just don't seems to happen now.
I don't know how much i miss being out with you.
But definitely more than you do.

Kawans-kawans sekalian,
Please take good care.
Peace Out.

PS - MTD10-ers , I'm still saying the same thing. " Will try to see u guys when i have the time "

[ K a o L a t L i a o L a ]

鉴定结果
您的心理年龄45岁

与您实际年龄差24岁

幼稚度28％

成熟度82％

老化度50％

Saw http://www.xlzx.com/xlcs/zy32.htm from Yuki's blog.
It's only in chinese la ... so try it if u can read chinese.
According to the test, my tested age is 24 years older than my actual age.
And my maturity is 82% and 28% i'm childish.
" Lao Hua Du " i'm guessing it's something like how fast i get older, which is a 50% percent.

Sound quite sad to me actually.

[ H u a t A h h ! ! ! ]

So , CNY is almost the ending already.

Ang Pao money kurang a lot this year.
Good thing is i got 3 AngPaos from singapore. =D
Didn't expect that.
Thanks to Ah Chim, Aunty and Uncle ah hong.

Went to PD and Melacca.
Overall, a bad trip.

Then visited a few kawans' rumah.
Not bad...
This year i broke my own rules.
I gambled and lost RM24. Kaninia. Sibeh tulan.

Then pai ti kong.
Ti kong also emo. Raining all the way until 12am.
Guess ti kong also know i emo.

That's all la for CNY.
Show off a bit singapore notes.

[ J a y C h o u ]

Part 1 :


Part 2 :


Part 3 :


Part 4 :


Part 5 :

[ E x p e c t a t i o n ]

People always expect something.
Good for themselves, sometimes people around them.
Bad for people they hate ( not sure )

They often say " How i wish i could ... How i hope i could ... "
But they always refuse to say " Why don't i just dream on ? "
I mean, life is totally random.
We don't know how long we gonna live in this world.
We will never know who will leave us or when we will leave people
around us.

Now, from what i see.
Life is like,
you get born into this world.
Then raised and taught how to be a "Good" fella, and don't
do the "Bad" things.
Normally, primary then secondary then higher education.
So when we're in primary,
teacher always ask " what's your ambition "
If you can remember what you told your teacher back then,
try to see/think what you're doing now.
Make a very simple comparison.
See if it's the same. Obviously no. Sometimes yes.

What i'm trying to say is,
we're never taught to know how unreal those ambitions were.
It's not wrong to have ambitions.
As we grow older, we progress.
We learn more about this life.
I don't know if there's anything wrong.
But just felt like writing these shits.

Laa ...
Bottom line is,
when you hit rock bottom and you don't know where to go,
what to do, who to trust.
Just learn how to say " Fuck it "
Maybe i sound a bit stupid asking people to do this.
Cuz normally people would think this kind of attitude is being
not responsible, not facing the problem.

My say, being not responsible and being rational at the right situation
is different. Very different.
You can't ask a person that's going to die in the next 1 week to
be responsible and keep fighting for his/her life.
Sometimes when we hit the wall,
we do mistakes.
It's always good to look for solutions and try fixing it again.
But sometime, certain thing ...
I prefer to say " Fuck It " and move on.
Rather than being pathetic and hoping people will
pity me. Hello ?
Got me ?

Expectation often leads to disappointment.
( again, im not asking you to forget about expectation )
But people always tend to forget
that famous word that all Drama/movies like to use.
" The higher your expectation is, the bigger your disappointment will be "
So sometimes, when their expectation never happened they feel " Fucked "
Then they start to feel Emo.
Sitting 1 corner, feeling pissed off, disappointed, sometimes like someone
owe them $10k.

Who taught us about expectation ?
Did he taught us about disappointment ?
But i know it's experience that will teach you how to deal with it.
If someone is seasoned enough, they will be as good as a medium rare steak. Hahaha.
Seasoned in this case simply equals to,
Got disappointed for countless time.

Actually, i don't know what made me write this entry.
I don't know what i said is "Right" or "Wrong"
But that's just my thoughts.
Life is short, Do your best in everything.
Break the rules and make your own rules.
Think out of the box, Look into the box.
Fuck the papers you failed, just make sure you know why you failed.
Not whining about it to everyone you know.
If you were hurt by a Bitch/Dickhead in relationship,
Move on. Why bother wasting your time feeling sad over it ?
Don't be a bitch, Then bitch wont bite you.
You gossip, Gossip you.
You play, Played you.
If you're a man, Do what a man is supposed to do.
If you're a lady, Learn how to do what a man does.
Unwritten rules are bullshits.
Break them, then you break free.

.....

[ T h o u g h t s ]

Law,
invented to ensure the society ?
or just an excuse to make more money ?

Money,
all roots of evil ?
or Human ?

God,
created human ?
or human ?
( no offense to anyone. )

1st Time Being Tagged. =D

"Things about me that you should know"

Top 1 Person I want to spend time with
1) Can i choose everyone in MTD 10 ? =) + 1 frm earlier batch. =P

Top 2 materialistic things I can't live without (money not counted)
1) Handphone
2) Perfume

Top 3 Places you'd find me at:
1) SAE Institute Malaysia
2) Right here whr im sitting rite now.
3) Wherever you asked me to go with u.

Top 4 Songs that is always somehow in my head
1) Blurry by Puddle Of Mudd
2) Lonely Day by System Of a Down
3) Suliman by Infected Mushroom
4) Carpe Noctum by Tiesto The Great

Top 5 shopping malls I go to:
1) Megamall
2) One Utama
3) The Curve/Ikano/Cineleisure
4) Sunway Pyramid
5) Aeon Bukit Tinggi

Top 6 things I HAVE to buy every month
1) Ciggies every 2 days.
2) RM30 hotlink.
3) RM50 touch n go ( minimum )
4) Petrol worth of RM450
5) Instant Noodles.
6) Shampoo, Facials, Body Shampoo & etc.

Top 7 snacks I love to munch on
1) Twisties ( spicy2 one ).
2) Nougat.
3) Cheezels
4) Any mint flavored candy.
5) Famous Amos Choc Cookies.
6) Chicken Wings.
7) LOBAK !

Top 8 places in a mall that i love to browse through
1) Tower Records.
2) MPH
3) Toys R Us.
4) Crocs.
5) Nike & Adidas & New Balance.
6) Watatime & Citichain
7) FOS
8) FOOD COURT. =D

Top 9 dreams of mine
1) To be blardy rich at the age of 30.
2) To have a happy family.
3) To be a good boy to my mom.
4) To be a choreographer.
5) To be a good husband and have a good wife.
6) To make more XAXAU music. =D
7) To be able to spend more time with my second family ( MTD 10 )
8) To own a Audi A4T
9) To live in a penthouse.

Top 10 guilty pleasures of mine
1) Addicted to Hot Mamas.
2) Addicted to street foods and any other nice foods.
3) Addicted to the beats n loops thru the sound system/headphones.
4) Addicted to Perfume.
5) Shoes and Sneakers.
6) Watches.
7) Cars.
8) Animals.
9) Deew.
10) You. =)

I declare tag to everyone that see this.

Hetch A Pee Pee Why

i am feeling Hetch A Pee Pee Why !
=D

M y C o u s i n s F r m K K

thy came, we rocked, thy ciao-ed.
and its the end of cny ....

p e m b e r s i h a n s e p e r i n g

giler babi ...
11am until 5++pm ....
tak mandi ... tak gosok gigi ....
sampai 5++pm ....
busuk giler babi !

u n c o u n t a b l e

so ... i went to The Curve wit some chickas and dickas.....
last minute thing ....

the countdown was rather uncountable ...
we din hear any 5,4,3,2,1 ....
we juz kept on screaming whnever we hear ppl scream.
and yeah ....
that's it ....

Last Few Days Of 2007. Regrets and Donts.

Regrets :

• didnt spend money wisely
• didnt do much enough
• didnt spend enough time with my family
• didnt spill out what's on my mind
• didnt do well in dance competition
• let the carwash washed my car and cause a few scratches
• smoke too much
• drink too much
• eat too much

Donts :

• STILL ALIVE !
• STILL KICKIN !
• STILL WITH MY FAMILY
• GOT A NICE CAR FROM MY MOM
• STILL HAVE A FEW FRIENDS ( i dont need much )
• STILL HAVE U READING MY BLOG.

wishin all of u that i care a merry christmas and a happy new year.
haters, please fuck off ... still anti wannabes.
ciaoz.